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Mommy

September 26, 2011

I came across this today… 

Hi, Mommy.

I’m your baby. You don’t know me yet, I’m only a few weeks old. You’re going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I’ve got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don’t have it yet, but I will when I’m born. I’m going to be your only child, and you’ll call me your one and only. I’m going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We’ll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up. …

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn’t wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already. …
… … … …
Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! …He wasn’t happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don’t think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don’t think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay… but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That’s a sound I don’t like. It doesn’t make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I’m not sure if I do. It wasn’t right. You say he loves you… why would he hurt you? I don’t like it, Mommy. … … … … …

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you’re so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I’m happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn’t talking right. He said he didn’t want you. I don’t know why, but that’s what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won’t let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don’t care if you think that he is a good person, I think he’s bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn’t want us. He doesn’t like me. Why doesn’t he like me, Mommy?

You didn’t talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It’s been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven’t talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don’t you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don’t you do that when you’re awake, any more?

I’m 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren’t you proud of me? We’re going somewhere today, and it’s somewhere new. I’m excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you’re as excited as I am. I can’t wait.

…Mommy, I’m getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don’t know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something’s going to happen soon. I’m really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don’t worry Mommy, I’m safe. I’m in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it’s called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don’t you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I’m really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don’t you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn’t I love you enough? Please say you’ll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don’t want to be here, I want you to love me again! I’m really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.

Two more eyes that will never see.

Two more hands that will never touch.

Two more legs that will never run.

One more mouth that will never speak

Abortion Funeral

July 27, 2011

For the original post of this on Moral Outcry, click HERE. 

While my attention has been focused elsewhere as of late, the issue of abortion will always be close to my heart, and i continue to read more about this issue all the time.

The picture says it all.

Jesus, we plead your blood over our sins and the sins of the nation. God, end abortion and send revival to North America.

A Much Needed Absence

July 4, 2011

For the faithful followers of this blog, i apologize for being absent.

I wrote earlier in the post “The Wrestling Match” about a stirring. Something from within me that was warring in me.

But that wrestling match has ended.

And out of it came something i could never have guessed would show up.

The Roaring Lion.

A new blog. One that will receive more attention than this one.

I am not lost on the irony that for a long while i have been authoring a blog called “The Silent Siege” and how God has now brought me through that silence to now proclaim loudly, as though a lion roaring, the things on my heart.

The Roaring Lion can be found at www.jasonkehler.wordpress.com.

Eyes Opened

June 15, 2011

(updated on July 1, 2011 – I found a video for what is written below)

Preacher and teacher Corey Russell says,

“Wanna get my eyes opened. That’s why Paul prayed that the eyes of your understanding would be enlightened. The eyes, like never before, this generation especially, the church, Jesus says, “If your eyes are good, your whole body is good.” Jesus says, “Where your eyes go, that’s where you go.” We are in a fight for the eyes, and that’s why beloved I am declaring an all-out assault: That it is time to begin to call forth a turning, Psalm 119:36-37, “Turn away my eyes from looking at worthless things.”

Some of us are so stuck on so many PG movies we have no appetite for real pleasure. So many are so stuck on so many “GOOD THINGS” we have no appetite for REAL THINGS… We’re so jaded by all the sitcoms that have sex stringing through them that our eyes are so defiled that we don’t even recognize a small affair here; a small fornication here, a small homosexual relationship here. WE ARE GETTING OUR SENSES DULLED. Psalm 13, “enlighten my eyes lest I sleep the sleep of death.” Beloved right now the church is sleeping a sleep of death. Our faculties are shot. Our prophetic senses are shot. The spirit of revelation is absent in the land, and we don’t know any different. I’m here to sound an alarm: It’s time we begin to see something different, because if we don’t see, we die. Without vision you perish, Amen! You don’t get vision you die. Once the gates are shut, you die.

That’s why the all out fight says I’m fighting for my eyes. Psalm 119 says, “Open my eyes that I might see wondrous things from your laws.” All wonder restored to the church. Eyes Opened, and we declare an all out assault against the power of immorality. This is the spirit of Jezebel that is teaching servants, and seducing servants into immorality. It’s the spirit of Jezebel that waters everything down and begins to dull our senses to the power of immorality. I call a generation to something higher.”

 Is he so wrong?

What do you think?

The Human Frame! part 1

June 8, 2011

Do you know how glorious the human frame is?

Research suggests that on average, people in the U.S spend about $8 Billion dollars a year, just on cosmetics. More than 10 Million women, and about 1 Million men have cosmetic surgery of some kind every year. Over $10 Billion is spent every year on plastic surgery, with about $1.2 Billion being spent on liposuction. More than $1.1 Billion is spent on breast augmentation surgery, and a single botox injection can cost as much as $400.

These people want someone else’s nose. They want their hair to look like someone else’s. They want to have the washboard abs that a movie star has.

Fashion is another area altogether. In the U.S. over $22 Billion is spent on clothes per year, on average. One season certain colors are popular, and then they’re not. So people get rid of clothes soon after they buy them, because they are not longer “in”. Closets are overcrowded with clothes that people don’t wear, and when those certain styles come back into season a year and a half later, they go out and buy entirely new wardrobes, instead of just digging through the pile in their closets, where they would find the same things.

It’s not hard to find these numbers. Just google it.

The vast amounts of money people spend on cosmetics, surgery, clothes, etc. every year is incredible.

And why is this?

Because they want to belong. They want to feel needed. They want to be a part of something.

But here is the thing that drives all of this. Here is the reason behind the reason people spend so much money on this stuff, and so much time in front of the mirror lamenting who they are:

Are you ready for this?

They believe a lie that Satan has been telling them.

It’s true. Satan has been lying to people about their bodies for so long, that the world has bought into the idea that they are not good enough.

Let me tell you another Truth.

God did not make a mistake when he made you. God did not make a mistake when he formed the human frame.

I want you to think about this for a minute…

God formed the human frame with his bare hands. We see in the creation account in Genesis 1 that when God created stuff, he spoke it into existence, “Let there be Light” and there was light (I know i’m stepping on a line here, with this whole creation thing, but just ignore the whole creation vs. evolution thing here please, that’s not what this is about).

Then in Genesis 2:7 it reads, “The Lord God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living being.”

God formed the human frame out of dust, got low to the ground, on his hands and knees as it were, and breathed life into that frame.

How glorious the human frame is. How wondrous is the creation that God took time to get his hands dirty in the dust for.

But there is a greater revelation of Truth here that needs to be understood as well.

If you read the gospels, Jesus promises a helper to guide Christians. John 14:15-21 reads:

15 If you love Me, keep My commandments. And I will pray the Father, and He wil give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever – the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you. I will not leave you orphans; I will come to you.

19 A little while longer and the world will see Me no more, but you will see Me. Becuase I live, you will live also. At that day you will know that I am in My Father, and you in Me, adn I in you. He who has My commandments and keeps them, it is he who loves Me. And he who loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I will love him and manifest Myself to him.”

And John 16:5-15 reads:

5 But now I go away to Him who sent Me, and none of you asks Me, ‘Where are you going?’ But because I have said these things to you, sorrow has filled your heart. Nevertheless I tell you the truth. It is to your advantage that I go away; for if I do not go away, the Helper will not come to you; but if I depart, I will send Him to you. And when He has come, He will convict the world of sine, and of rightouseness, and of judgment: of sin, because they do not believe in Me; of rightousness, because I go to My Father and you see Me no more; of judgment, because the ruler of this world is judged.

12 I still have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. However, when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth; for He will not speak on His own authority, but whatever He hears He will speak; and He will tell you things to come. He will glorify Me, for He will take of what is Mine and delcare it to you. All things that the Father has are Mine. Therefore I said that He will take of Mine and declare it to you.”

Now, before we get to far ahead of ourselves here, i fully understand that these passages are loaded with everything theological. There is a lot of stuff in these passages that people have written vast amounts of books on. That’s not what we’re here for today.

What i want you to notice from these passages, in light of what Genesis says about God forming us, is this: God lives in you.

Yes, you read that right.

Almighty God, who created the universe, and everything in it, lives in you.

What kind of creature would it take to house the living God? What kind of being is capable of carrying in it, all the power and excellencies of Almighty God?

The Human Frame!

Sometimes i don’t think we pay enough attention to this great revelation. Our reaction is, “Yeah, i’m a Christian,” when our reaction should be, “HALELUJAH! I’VE GOT THE LIVING GOD LIVING IN ME, SPEAKING TO ME AND GUIDING ME. WHAT JOY TO KNOW THAT HE LOVES ME SO MUCH, THAT HE CREATED THIS FRAME, A FRAME THAT BREAKS DOWN, GETS HURT AND BLEEDS; HE CREATED THIS FRAME TO BE WITH ME!”

The power and greatness of God alone should make us explode. But instead, He designed us in such a unique way that can house His Spirit.

And i say unique for a reason. You are unique. No one like you in all the world. And don’t give me any dopple-ganger talk. What a crock. You are unique. God designed you specifically to be you.

Don’t try to change it. Don’t buy into the lies of Satan that say you have to change something. That you need surgery or something to be prettier, to be more physically appealing, to be more accepted.

You are accepted. You are physically appealing. God designed you to be that way for a reason. Believe his Truth instead of the devil’s lies.

The Church of Oprah

June 3, 2011

I read this recently on the Focus on the Family’s site, http://www.focusonlinecommunities.com/blogs/Finding_Home/2011/06/02/the-church-of-oprah

The Church of Oprah

Posted by Jim_Daly on 2-Jun-2011 1:44:40 PM

Are you a fan of Oprah Winfrey or did you ever watch her popular television program over the last twenty-five years?

In a recent essay in the Wall Street Journal to mark the end of her award-winning show, writer Joanne Kaufman offered an interesting observation:

To watch Oprah, who just wrapped up 25 years of syndicated pastoral work – her last hour of power, number 4,561, aired Wednesday – was to be part of a congregation of true believers.

She continued:

Oprah was nothing if not a secular chapel. Countless celebs and civilians came on to confess their sins, to push their mea-culpa memoirs, and to seek absolution or redemption (good for the soul and for ratings). Some of the acolytes, that is to say guests, like psychologist Phil McGraw, heart surgeon Mehmet Oz, Food Network star Rachel Ray, and interior designer Nate Berkus, became the anointed.

From press reports and word of mouth, I’ve concluded that millions of people were drawn to the Oprah Winfrey Show not just because of a hunger for gossip or celebrity gawking or even her charisma. They also came and stayed because they were drawn to the host’s seeming spirit of compassion, emotional sensitivity, grace and generous inclinations (she gave a car to everyone in her studio audience several times).

At the same time, Oprah’s show regularly promoted a generic form of “spirituality,” tapping into the rising tide of American agnosticism. A viewer could watch and listen to Oprah and her many guests talk about God and get the impression that just being good is good enough. They were also regularly encouraged to understand that true spiritual liberation comes not from embracing specific doctrine but from shedding its cumbersome shackles.

It would be easy to critique Ms. Winfrey’s performance, point out the contradictions and examine the consequences of the sometimes dangerous and erroneous theology that’s been discussed over the past twenty-five years on her program. And while her personal rags-to-riches story can inspire, Ms. Winfrey has been her own harshest critic when it comes to the challenges surrounding her own life.  She’s talked openly and tearfully about her abusive relationships, flirtations with suicide, drug use and roller-coaster common-law marriage with her long-time live-in boyfriend.

But the reality of the Oprah phenomenon is this: the reason she was so successful and that so many flocked to her for so long was that she tapped, however unknowingly, into the great longing of mankind. God has wired every human person with a desire to love and be loved – and to be understood. Oprah provided this forum, however muddled and mixed up it may have been. Instead of going to church and joining a Bible study, many got their “fix” from Oprah Winfrey.

This longing is what St. Augustine was getting at when he wrote of God, “…you have made us for yourself, and our hearts are restless until they rest in thee.”

Indeed, there is a deep and wide spiritual appetite in the world today. It has always been so. And one way or another, every person will fill it. But with what? Pseudo-spirituality or the true Gospel of Jesus Christ? Mom and Dad, your kids are hungry and looking for answers – I pray that you will invest the time and effort in introducing them early to the person and truth of Jesus Christ

360 Degrees

May 30, 2011

U2 Stage at Winnipeg StadiumU2 Stage Under ConstructionU2 Stage layout (picture not taken in Winnipeg)

 

So there it is. The stage of stages for the show of shows. And the pictures don’t really do the concert justice. Standing 25 feet from the stage with Bono and The Edge within perfect view, we experienced a U2 concert the way it was meant to be experienced. If you look carefully, you can see that the ring is actually a walkway where the artists strutted their stuff. Moving bridges gave them access to the walkway and they made full use of them. Several times, Bono stopped on the bridge as he made his way across, and he was within arms reach of us. For some statistics about the tour itself, a friend of mine wrote a post on his blog here  a while ago that will satisfy some curiosities, and his words still ring true, “So, is U2′s 360° Tour wretchedly excessive? Yes. Will it be a good show? Most definitely.”

It was a good show. As a local radio jockey would say, “It was Phenomenal”.

Having said that though, I must admit i can’t remember at least half of the show. I know what some might be thinking, but no, i wasn’t drinking. In fact, once we found the spot where we were going to stand, i didn’t move all night.

“So Jay, if you weren’t drinking, and you didn’t leave your spot all night, how could you possibly miss, or not remember, over half the show?”

Well i’m glad you asked.

We arrived early and, like i said, we got a great spot to view the show. Naturally, as shows like this go, there was a lot of alcohol being consumed by those around us. Before it even began, there was a group of people nearby who had made three or four trips to the liquor stand. Each! I chuckled to myself because their actions slowly got more telling of the state they were in. If you have been to a social (for those readers outside Manitoba, you might be unfamiliar with this concept, but if you Google “Manitoba Social” you’ll be informed quite quickly), or any sort of party you might recognize the behaviors of the over consumer: 1) The need to constantly be “cheersing” (tapping cups together); 2) Dancing wildly when there is no music playing; 3) Constant stumbling and falling over; and last but not least, and this seems more common in women than in men, although men do it too; 4) Cheering and wooping excessively which turns into giggles and laughter which turns into more cheering and wooping (repeat).

That wasn’t a rabbit trail, this is all leading somewhere, so stay with me.

All of this excessive behavior was already going on around us before the opening act, The Fray, was even on stage. The presence of any band on stage just seems to highten the need for this type of behavior.

I should stop here and say though that i was mildly impressed with The Fray. Having never heard them before (at least not to my knowledge) i found some of the tunes quite good. One critique, if i’m allowed, was that they very quickly retreated within themselves on stage and did not engage the fans the way they could have, given the great opportunity. After a couple of songs, the lead singer sat behind a piano, and didn’t really get up much after that. He did, but not much. That’s the sort of thing that will quickly take a crowd out of what the band is trying to do. Just my thought.

Anyway, as i looked around at the people that were present, and their actions, an enormous burden gripped me. My eyes were opened to how lost the people around me were. My heart began to ache because of the lack of hope in the people. I saw women dressed the way society says they should to feel better about themselves. I saw men ogling over those women. I saw depravity and hopelessness, and i almost buckled under the weight of it all. I wanted to fall on my face and plead with God that he would intervene in these lost lives, these embittered lives, and knock on the door of their hearts. I wanted to fall on my face, but i couldn’t, so i stood there, quietly praying.

The Fray played their set, and the roadies came on stage to make way for U2. After a break that i think was too long, U2 took the stage at 9:00. Not every song they have has a great message, but many do. The expression of faith can be found in U2’s lyrics, which is good. But even in the moment, standing 25′ from the band, my heart was in heaven pleading with God for a revelation of truth that the people needed to hear.

Never in my life, would i have thought that i could actually see U2 in concert. Never in my life did i think that if i saw them, i would be that close to the stage, that close to the interaction. And never in my life, did i think that if that moment became a reality, that i wouldn’t even be paying attention to the music and the stage and the spectacle of it all because i would be praying for the lostness of the people around me.

But that’s what happened. I don’t remember a lot of the show because at times, i wasn’t really at the show. Yes there were times when i was present with reality that i did catch the songs, and the moment. I didn’t miss it all. But i am so glad that i had that opportunity. I am so amazed at God’s presence, no matter where we are. I am so thankful that God spoke in that moment, and that the Holy Spirit, living in me, gave me strength to not ignore the burden on God’s heart in that moment, but rather that i had the strength to pray, and be confident that God was listening. I am so glad, that i could hear God over the roar of the music (which by the way, sounded awesome. Outdoor shows are always sketchy for sound, but these guys seem to have figured that out).

It was a great show, and i’m glad i got to experience it.

I’m going to do something i don’t generally do. I don’t ask much from my readers, but today i’m making an exception.

To get to the show yesterday, we parked at a garage close to Portage Place and took the bus over to the Stadium for the show. This of course meant that we needed to bus back to the garage after. The bus was packed on the ride back after the show, standing room only. After a while some people got off at their stops, and a seat opened up near where i had been standing. I offered the seat to some others, but they declined and so i found myself seated next to a lady. I started a conversation with her, knowing we only had a few blocks before one of us would get off the bus. In a matter of moments, we were in a fairly deep conversation and i found out a lot about her trouble life.

I won’t go into details, but can i ask you, my readers, to pray for Theresa. She’s going through a crazy difficult time in her life. God knows the situation, but as you are reminded, lift her before the Lord, and the Holy Spirit will give utterances where you are unable. Thank-you.